After consuming more sugar in 20 minutes last night than I’ve had in the last 9 weeks is seems only fair that there would be Consequences.
I had a fitful night and when I woke I had a dull headache and a sense that a squirrel had taken a shit in my mouth and left its tail behind.
Despite my promise to my family that I would not write about our lives there are, inevitably, things that go on in the background that impact upon me and the way that I eat. I have learnt that stress is a major trigger for me in relation to mindless eating.
My mother in law passed away a week last Sunday. The last few months, and in particular the last 4 weeks, have been horrendous and today we went to my in-laws’ house (2 hours away) to discuss the funeral. It was a tough day all round.
I was reasonably organised on the food front but spent the day feeling like I’d been up late drinking – I was tired, irritable and exhausted. There was an inescapable link between my bad mood and yesterday’s sugar binge.
Today was a ‘rest’ day although I think I probably would have felt better if I had exercised. With hindsight I wish that I’d got up earlier and gone for a walk before we left.
I’m now at the stage where my morning walk, even if it is only 20 minutes, clears my head and allows me to prepare for the day. I’ve also noticed that when I don’t go, I really miss it.
I walked today. For an hour. Not far enough. But it was that or nap, and wake up craving sugar.
When I am sad or stressed I want tea and biscuits. A throw back from being young I guess.
I have just signed up to a free c25k
Inspired by you Rhiannon, So whatever you think you are doing or not doing, it is helping me. I’m not going to say I’m totally on board. But your messages of changing small things for the little wins help.
Next week I will share photos. Because what’s the worst that can happen? I had a boob job February 2019. They are magnificent after being AWFUL for so long and I have shared them proudly.
So, just before I start c25k I will share my bulk. Why not? For nothing other than accountability. And so that you that are smaller and you that are bigger feel like we belong. In this motley crew of woman. Menopausing, waist losing, chin sprouting women.
Thank you so much Catherine. As you know I have decided to continue and, tonight, share my progress photos. I am so proud that my silly musings are helping. We are fed so much bullsh*t by the media and the diet industry – I just wanted to add a dose of honesty. Little wins are important – some days it’s all I’ve got. We work too hard and give too much of ourselves to everyone else to beat ourselves with our own sticks. Keep going – I know you can do it. xxx PS is that a 25k walk? Want a companion?
25k! Christ no! It’s the couch to 5k running programme… So basically in 12 weeks I should be able to run 5k without dying. Apparently.
I start Monday. I might well die.